Believe it OR not, I am home on a Saturday night!
Hahh! Not intentionally though.

Weather somehow turned nasty, resulting in the ignorance of all other plans and dozing off to dreamland. Damn syiok! Especially with the rain and my comforter, all snuggled up. Weee~ And I finally managed to catch up on my sleep!

But then again, as if I'll be home the whole night.
I'll be out and about again by midnight. Its either movies with the boys or clubbing at 2 am with Niki. So which is which. I'm still contemplating and its still drizzling here which adds on to the laziness instilled in me.

Despite the lack in updates, there has been much daily surprises which has literally stunned me. Is it just based on pure coincidence? Or is there a meaning behind all these? To the one/ones affected, pardon my much-hatred for relationships attitude and trust-no one policy. *peace*

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Okay, here comes the confessions of a broken heart part. Chet ~!

I've always managed to run away from falling for the opposite sex ever since the ex-bf and I know many might think negatively of me because of that. Because once the boys start to display the "i-am-starting-to-develop-feelings-for-you" part, I will ultimately start playing the game of drifting away. Life's a bitch, I know. And I'm not a bitch. Seriously. I don't just drift away within an instance. I will on the other hand, try to sustain the friendship by confrontations and clarifications. If neither works, then here comes the chips more part, where I'm being labelled as the "now-you-see-it, now-you-don't" cookie. HAHH!

There are always reasons being the way one reacts accordingly.
In any case, for those who are constantly updated on my life, I am sure you know why. I may portray myself as a rugged chick, abit on the wild side, being called a "boy" by the boys. But deep down, I am just a sensitive and vulnerable girl who cries at the slightest failure, scared of being hurt once again.

I've had enough of tolerating other people's bullshits and I'm sure others have had enough of mine too which is why I tend to stay away from relationships.

Honestly, I did fall for someone after the ex-bf period.
You may know who from previous entries. Hence, I don't see the need to type his name. Things just couldn't work out between us and it was quite a tragic ending. Despite countless attempts of amending things, when one is reluctant, it would never work out. So that was it!

However, for the past month, it has been nothing but constant smiles and laughter. The butterflies are here again, and it would be nice if it was here to stay. After nearly one year of single-mingleism!

Well, it's too early to elaborate more into details.
And, I am just cruising through.

Damn.
Brother wants his laptop back.
To be continued with tag replies and more confessions of this boy ..

I've yet to inform majority of the bloggers in regards to the changes in my URL.
Hence, I will take the initiative to do so when I'm free.

Reason for the change?
Family members who I haven't been in touched with for more than 10 years have managed to scheme their way through, leaving me unwanted messages on my blog and Facebook. As for Facebook, there won't be any issues since I have the right to block and delete them if I choose too. Call me cruel, heartless or whatever. I know myself better and I have my own personal reasons. With all due respect to the Daddy's side, please forgive me.

Anyhoos, it has been eons since I've last updated my blog.
Lack in updates due to the fact that I've been way distracted by Facebook. Hahh. Well you see, when I do get a chance to update, there will be messages and constant replies which can drag for hours. Thus, leaving this blog to be slightly dormant. Huhu.

Life has been nothing out of the ordinary.
Un-blessed with too much drama's.
I wonder why people insists they're appreciative of your presence when at times, the way they portray themselves towards you undeniably displays the total opposite. Pfftt. Suit yourself. No matter what happens, the sky will still be blue, the clouds will still be white and the earth will continue spinning, whether you like it or not. So, kindly shut your traps and shove it up your asses. Major URGH.

Despite downfall moments in certain aspects of my life, it will still be filled with much fun and laughter with the people surrounding me. Hence, I'm pretty much blessed. Running short on love? I doubt so. I'm constantly receiving much love. Its just that, for me to display my love and affection for one, of the opposite sex takes time. These boys don't fall under this category. They're constantly loved, but they're my number one heroes! AND THAT'S IT!

To all their girlfriends, I have absolutely NO interest whatsoever in your boyfriends.
HAHAHA.

Some chicks are becoming way possessive these days that they're actually making a fool out of themselves. In regards to one of the drama's a few months back, there has been another one recently too. But this time round, I don't even know the bloody guy. He just happened to be a friend's friend kinda thing. Long story and it made me crack up big time. Stupid YP chick. Huahua.

Oh well. Shit happens.


One out of many, cam-whoring sessions.
Tssssk. The best guys who never fail to entertain my shits. Bahahaha.

Not forgetting the rest ...



.. And a few more missing ..
Due to the fact that they are either busy with work and GIRLFRIEND !!!

But nonetheles, each and everyone of you are greatly remembered.


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Tag replies

16 Sep 09, 03:18
tasha: hey beb.. ingatkn dh menghilang kemana je.. wanted to blog but alwys so busy. haizz.. if only.. im a... tai-tai
pka : hey darls! tu la pasal. your blog has been dormant for so damn long already! but anyhoos, i wished i was a tai-tai too. weeee~ best kan!

8 Sep 09, 13:03
veeya: yohaaa! relink done lurv. tc ((:
pka : thanks baybeh.

8 Sep 09, 03:08
yun: done ! now, ur turn to relink me !
pka : u ahh. always change ya links every now and then! hahh.

7 Sep 09, 14:14
zura: i wana c ur new hair cpat!! hehe
pka : *bluek* dah nampak. lol.

7 Sep 09, 12:57
zie: ok da relink!
pka : thankiewww =)

6 Sep 09, 16:52
kin: chak pka! aiseh tuka url rupernye... tak blg seh. hehe..nasib nampak ur link pat msn. take care always beb! bday kiter da nak dekat! hehe
pka : hehh. i haven't got round to ya blog to drop by my link! thanks for relinking darls. oh, what ya doing for your bday this year? i don't think i'll be celebrating anythin. one year anniversary of single-hood aje lahh. HAHAHA

6 Sep 09, 14:49
zyzy: *bebeh..anw, do tkcr..& insya'allah, d days to come would be a more better days for u.. =)
6 Sep 09, 14:48
zyzy: bebebh,how u do ur facebook link ek?? =)
6 Sep 09, 14:28
zyzy: hey bebeh..i have relink u.. =)
pka : thanks for the thoughts babe. i'm sure it will, one day. hehh. facebook link? there's this badge thing tt you can use on facebook. last time keluar gambar sekali. but now, dah hilang gambar. haha.

5 Sep 09, 16:43
angel: most would have walked away by now,but you still stay.your perseverance and strength are so great,its every man's dream in a woman.Maybe one day,its his dream too. .(again,sorry)
5 Sep 09, 16:38
angel: this may be not my place to say,if so im sorry.Personally,i dont think its pathetic,i think its natural u react that way.I admire your love n affections towards whoever that person is...
pka : hehh. thanks boy. if only some boy's mindset and thoughts were like yours, i'd be the happiest girl ini the world! but then again, it will never happen.. so, no point hoping. =)

5 Sep 09, 16:11
zura: relink done! ;)
pka : thanks baybeh !!

3 Sep 09, 11:38
Nada: Please reply me asap.. We miss you guys loads.. Thank you kak afiqah.. Send my love regards to your family.. :) I miss playing the ice with you n abg ruzaini.. Remember? Yes.. :heart:
3 Sep 09, 11:36
Nada: Hi Kak Afiqah.. I'm Nada.. Remember me? Ur lil long lost cousin whom you loved to eat chewing gums with..At last I managed to find you,abg ruzaini,aqil and wak ros..Remember me kak afiqah?
pka : hmmmm. no comments. =)

2 Sep 09, 12:14
niki: mcm lagu aku jee..... had gi aussie holiday... happy he still remember to inform me...
pka : oh, kau biken lagu eh? huahua. abeh had gi aussie. bile kite nak pergi niki?!

1 Sep 09, 07:15
Paula: hello love. do relink me. and how come leh tag panjang giler the babi eh? hehe
pka : hahh. there's too much controversies on your blog babe. dorang semua jealous tu!

31 Aug 09, 02:12
yanosan: hey pyka py!!~~~ tanx fer droppping by...aniwae got te job oredie and today is my first day seii...hahaa....takle tydo nie...haiss...aniwae sabar je lar oke dlm bulan puase nie...hehe hope to mit us
pka : weee~ all the best for your new job yano! hope all goes well for you. and btw, dah nak hari raya pon! tak jumpe2 seyy!

30 Aug 09, 16:02
kin: hey hey oka.. btw da pass?
pka : hahh. nope babe. i book but never go kinda thing. soon i hope!

28 Aug 09, 14:53
Fyra: hello jambu! sorry ehh have to relink me again. hehe. happy fasting!! :D
pka : no worries babe. now your turn to relink me!

28 Aug 09, 14:28
Oshin: Baby girl ku! Muacks.. Had fun with you yesterday. Edkeke. Will always and still love you wholeheartedly! Hee. *HUGS & KISSES*
pka : baby girl! i missshh you. i'm sorry i fell asleep yesterday nite instead of meeting you. i'll make up for it soon! and i will constantly, without fail, keep on loving you too!

28 Aug 09, 12:28
lala: lame pe tk sebok2 pat sini..hahahaha....nuting updated in my blog so u're rite...no point accessing..hahahahaha.....hey!!!!!i LOVE UR PINK SPARK!!!!!!
pka : alaaaah update jugak la sekali sekale. tapi i know the feeling nak update but MALAS! weee~ and thanks, i wanna see ya KR MINAH REMPIT! bahaha

28 Aug 09, 08:39
zie: hello cantik! I link you ok.. happy fasting!
pka : thanks darls. happy fasting too. oh, da lambat so, Selamat Hari Raya!

27 Aug 09, 21:55
ainni: happy fasting to you too syg!
pka : selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin babe!

26 Aug 09, 21:35
Caramelboopz: Pka tak puasE?! lol.
pka : erm. first week puase =D

26 Aug 09, 19:55
dyaNurdiana: HELLO ZYZY ! Haahaa . Ohh yarh sure , link me yarh :D
pka : hehh. aite babe, linked!

26 Aug 09, 18:38
zyzy: so diz yr plannin on wat color for ur aju raya?? da li kuih-muih??
26 Aug 09, 18:37
zyzy: unless $$ do really grow on trees... *wink* get wat i mean... =)
26 Aug 09, 18:36
zyzy: biasela..i nie very clumsy person..lolx..smpi pegang specs pun leh jatuh..insya'allah cnfrm leh trsrempak..like u say, spore is DAMN SMALL mah... *grin* & i wont be buying specs so soon r..
pka : hahah. dah nak kat abes pon bazaar geylang. tak tersempak pon! kite nak jumpe ni! hehh. btw tomorrow nite, friday. i'll be goin geylang and mungkin malam raya too. u goin any of those days? but this year, i tak raya.. mcm last year jugak. haha. so, i'm not buying any baju raya or kuih or anything. hehh.

26 Aug 09, 14:15
Dhaniyah: i think the girl's name Revonda or smth liddat.. too bad.. bt the pay damn baekk kan!!!
pka : yeahh! its like total gaji buta you know! hahh. quite fun environment. sayannng sey! btw beb, i link you up okay!

26 Aug 09, 12:37
had: ramadhan mubarak and selamat berpuasa pka
pka : selamat hari raya makcik!

26 Aug 09, 02:45
ira: pka oka pka!!! Hey Hey Hey....
pka : ehh? ira da sawan ke?

26 Aug 09, 01:29
prince yan: slamat berpuasa ... jage dri..
pka : selamat hari raya, maaf zahir batin. jumpe lagi. HAHAHA

25 Aug 09, 21:43
ANGEL: yes you are indeed sweet,one of the sweetest...SUGARRR...=p
pka : weeeee~ you make me smileeeeeee =D

PHEW !!
Finally done !!

Due to unforseen circumstances, I've had to either privatise my blog or change its URL.

Hence, after much consideration, this is the result.

Kindly RE-LINK babes.

Arigato gozaimas.

2009 hasn't been a good year to start with.

I'm praying that it will end without much complications. I don't need to entertain any more shits, be it friends or family. Kindly refrain from interfering in our lives DAMMIT. Like I've said before and I'll say it again. To me, family consists of my mum and two adorable brothers. As for extended family, it falls under my mum's siblings category. Therefore, any other cousins or Wak-Wak's on my fathers side remains in the same unwanted category like it was before. With all due respect, and in this holy month, forgive me for reacting this way.

On another note, I do miss you Daddy.

But I hate your attitude, and I hate the fact that I'm the closest one having your traits, your character and your bad habits.

Enough of family issues.

Too much controversy.

Oh, I was fined $500 for having a contraband cigarette in my possession.

Major heartache. I mean, I could've bought my GPR pipe instead of paying the government! Lesson learnt. And to other smokers who choose a cheaper alternative of buying cheaps cigs or even cigs purchased from Malaysia, be wary of your surroundings. Just standby $500! Hahh. For those being caught a second time, $1500! Fuhhhh. Don't waste it. I really pity the boy who was stuck there as he was required to pay $5000 within 7 days. He was about to move off on his bike when he was screened by the police and had one carton of contraband cigs with him. Sighs. Poor boy.

Initially, I was quite pissed with the fact that I had to fork out $500. But then again, there isn't anyone else to be blamed for my unluckiness this year other than my own self. From the major accident to the minor accidents, from the fines to the summons, from the love to the hatred. To sum it all up, a catastrophic year indeed.

Don't despair.

I will get back on my own two feet.

Despite the downfall, or despite any obstacles that is thrown against me, I will always be smiling both inside and outside. Those people from the past? They are constantly missed and I pray for their happiness. But you have to learn to let go and move on in life.

It just takes time for you to realise that.

Don't worry.

It's human nature.

And oh, I have to admit. I will always check up on your profile the moment I log in Facebook!

Pathetic kan!

I know. Sombody please stop me!

My patience level is receding.

I am trying to remain calm to the best of my ability despite the fasting month in which one's tolerance level is at a constant low. Rock bottom. Bingo. Get it?! I have no time to entertain shits. Neither am I bothered too. So don't piss me off.

The tendency or more like, URGE to update my blog has since drifted away.
Hence, resulting with the constant nags of all these wonderful people surrounding me who's always like "Pka, update your blog! Cepat" Lol. Okay enough. Here's an update. But it won't be filled with pretty pictures and events. Well lets see. If I run out of things to say, I'll just stuff in those photos which are basically already uploaded on my Facebook.

Life has been free and easy I suppose.
Its pretty much routined and absolutely mundane I tell ya! Gosh. Today's the 4th day into the holy month of Ramadhan. I am damn damn proud that I've been fasting since day 1. Alhamdulillah. Amin. Oh, despite having sahur ONCE. Hahh. I only managed to have sahur on the first day which was due to the fact that I was still outside with Sen and his friends. Other than that, no one bothers to wake me up! Urgh. -__-

Endurance peoples.

Even though today's the 4th day, believe it or not, I still haven't had any of my break fasting moments at home. Hahh. Pathetic, I agree. First day of fasting month was spent with the boys from 10am to 10pm! Spent half the day in JB followed by Ubi to get my plate number done since the asshole whacked me from behind, hitting my plate number and mud guard. Headed back to Woodlands, and since I'm such a good "brader," HAHAHA. I packed food from home and buke-d together with Moksen. I didn't want him to break fast all alone so I joined him. SWEET KAN AKU! Bahahaha. We watched The Hangover soon after on DVD before he headed off to work and I found myself making my way to Yishun.

Sunday was spent at the Pub.
And yesterday, Apai's house.

I'm still contemplating for today.
If mum's at home, I'll make my way back to Woodlands.

Before I end, here's the sneak preview of the upcoming film Sesat which features one of the boys, Is! It will be out on DVD on the 8th of September and will be featured on local television on i-don't-know-when. Muahaha. He'll be updating me soon enough. Anyway, a big fat congratulations for making huge progress on your career boy!

Be sure to catch the soundtrack too.
It's none other than the belo Is singing. Fuhhhh baik kepe!



Oh, selamat berpuasa to each and everyone of you.
I just called Mum who won't be home tonight. Looks like I'll be meeting the boys for another break fast session! ... And, I can't wait to meet the baby girl, tomorrow!

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22 Aug 09, 05:51
dyaNurdiana: Coincidentally , i went to yano's blog and hop to yours . Saw my classmate's name Zyzy and found out you're her friend too . & tha world is really small .
pka : ahh thanks for dropping by babe! well yes indeed! the world seems as though its getting smaller and smaller. haha. but then again, maybe its singapore which is just DAMN SMALL! btw, care to exchange links? weee~

19 Aug 09, 18:13
Shy L: Hmmm... seen your bike before... hmmm... kiter macam kena saman sama sama gitu depan 77+ nyer pavement... neways, nice bike...
pka : hmmmm. iye ke. macam tipu aje. moto saya tak pernah kene saman kat pavement tu.

19 Aug 09, 17:33
lieza: was blog hopping, nice blog btw~ pretty girl riding a pretty PINK bike. :)
pka : thanks for dropping by babe! you didn't leave me any links.. hehh.

19 Aug 09, 11:14
elly: jus wondering.. cause my scar is very visible.
19 Aug 09, 11:13
elly: u got into an accident right? but i was just wonderig you didnt have any scars.? i was into bike accident too. but i have a scar. what did you use to get rid of it?
pka : hey babe. yeah i got into a real bad one. but most of the scars have healed. i went to the hospital for check up every week and they gave me different types of creams and stuff. anyway, its not totally gone. some of the scars are still obvious. its just luckily the face abrasions cleared up.

18 Aug 09, 14:01
Dhaniyah: ooh tts the pub at bugis right? lol. i got selected for 2nd interview bt i decided not to go.. working late nights hard to meet bf.. heeheehee..
pka : yeahhh! spot on! who interviewed you? ahh. its advisable not to have a bf if you wanna work pub or clubs. leceh uh. time consuming too! haha. kalau single boleh lah! lol.

17 Aug 09, 23:39
jaez: hahaha now i got ur blog... i love ur pinky bike.. sexy licious..
pka : clever girl. so where's your blog ?!!

17 Aug 09, 21:41
nira: 's ok...found her @ facebook oready. thanx
pka : no worries =)

17 Aug 09, 20:42
veeya: yea,im not a pink addict...but i love e design... (: wer did u get it done? & hw much?
pka : wee~ i can tell you're not a pink addict! haha. i got it done in JB. the old ah-boy shop, not the lorong bapok one. altogether i spent like SGD $400 - $500 including new cover set, press fog, alignment, accesorries, etc etc. bnyk lagi sih.

16 Aug 09, 22:36
naddya: *kat
16 Aug 09, 22:36
naddya: hehe! ya lorr. klat dlm krete satu2 prangai monyet eh pekik2. lols. tc riding ok sweets.
pka : hahaha. buat kite lagi malu seyy!! btw, selamat berpuase babe!

16 Aug 09, 13:11
nisa: take good care of ur health darling.. hehehehe. eat moreeeee to get morrree vitaminssss..
pka : thanks baby! i'm full of unwanted vitamins. huahua. dah start puase pon. lol.


15 Aug 09, 18:11
zyzy: i need to get new specs cz my specs sik broke je..ahahaha..if nt terduduk kn, it's jatuh from my clumsy hand..teeheehee...
pka : wakakaka. aik. jatuh from your hand boleh break gitu macam? wahh betol nye fierce awak. okay best, sekarang tgah zaman geylang pergi, geylang balek. harap2 tersempak ye! harap2 u buy new specs already. hehh

14 Aug 09, 21:37
angel: ei ! my fav pic is in here!! wee ! besar2 plak tu...=P
pka : weeeee~ your favourite pasal pka sweet kan!

New Zealand's cancelled for next month.
Well not literally cancelled. Just postponed till further notice since I can't get my leave either and it will be damn wasted if I were to go for one week only since the flight itself is $1400 return tickets!

But Bali's still on!
News has it that our company trip this year will be Bali as well! DAMMIT! That means it will be Bali in November and December as well. Oh well. I still can't wait for the end of the year and its approaching right before you know it! I'm supposed to book the tickets today but I've been busy with work and distracted with Facebook. Luckily I logged off my MSN. And all these is causing my head to spin. My health level is deteriorating badly and I'm in need of vitamins or whatever. Been coughing like mad till I vomitted. Feeling extremely restless and there's this excruciating internal pain in my head that is like causing me to black out. I feel like hitting my head on the wall. Seriously.

I have to work tonight.
It's Taufiq aka Topek's birthday and the GRS boys will be coming down! It'll be heaps fun because working at the pub is more like dole pay. You have countless fun and get paid at the same time. HAHA. Most of the boys are making sure he gets totally wasted tonight and I will most probably have to park my bike there tonight too! No more drink riding kan. *good girl pka*

Some of the girls at Caesars!





There are like 10 more missing though.
Haha. This is just one of our bored nights with only like 6 of us working. On Sunday's its just the 2 of us girls mending the pub at times and I love working on Sunday as its so damn chilled. Oh, other than that night when the 2 of us got immensely drunk with me sleeping and Stephy puking in the toilets. BAHAHAHA!

.. And as you can see, I'm on MALAS mode to update, so I've kept this short and sweet! So in other words, more updates will be done when MALAS mode is OFF!

Enjoy your weekend peoples!

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12 Aug 09, 16:32
Fyra: hello jambu. relink me ok! xoxo.
pka : relinked huns =)

11 Aug 09, 13:48
naddya: saw u on the rd! saw u on the rd! =))
pka : weee~ i know! your sis told me too! hehe. sorry tak dapat tegur!

10 Aug 09, 23:33
zyzy: i loike ur bike!!! pink color!! weee~~~~ ahahahaha...yeah, i do hope we bump into each otha..bt if u see me kn, do tegur me 1st cz i nie de ckit rabun ehehehehe.... =)
pka : u rabun, i pon rabun jugak sey! need to wear specs but i never do! only when i'm at home. hehe. i look so kental!

10 Aug 09, 01:25
didi: and everyone in the car goes like " eh cool ar kwn kau" kekekeke.. && i saw got mat spr 4 kejar u ryt? hahaha...
10 Aug 09, 01:24
didi: pka,i saw u on the rd just now. haha.at wdlands time nk masok e'way. i'm in dis gen-2 red car, i even wind dwn the window and shout name but u didnt see cos u pon riding ryt. haha..
pka : haha. that s4 guy was the biggest irrits ah. stupid ass! oh, i did hear someone shout my name from the car but i didn't have the time to turn and check. nnti kalau pusing teros jatoh depan, malu i !! weee~

10 Aug 09, 00:56
fedodedo: yeah. no more drink riding pls. syg sikitz kau nye sparky tu.
pka : yes boy. i know i know =)

9 Aug 09, 02:26
nira: hi ! hey i know niki....it's been a while since i bumped into her..tell her cikgu said hi.that is if she remembers.
pka : hey babe! hehh i've told her already. i don't know if she remembers though. but she said hi back too! =)

8 Aug 09, 14:33
kin: hahaha hello.. wah spark da tuka baju sehh. btw kin bz la seh smp tk terupdate. hehe will find some time to updatee,, wee
pka : weee~ simple je beb. sorry didn't get the chance to reply u just now on facebook. this thurs? confirm? i won't work on that night then!

7 Aug 09, 14:18
naddya: hello pka pka. hehe. i link u already ok. ur bike PINK! i loikee plss! heh.
pka : yayy! u love pink too?! same same lah babe! but its still not ready yet. still got more to change. hehe. tangan gattal!

7 Aug 09, 12:26
Hadz: Abg ko masok newspaper in overseas, abg aku masok majalah manja. Hahaha.
pka : haha. abang ko masok manja for what? sungguh HOT kepe. hahaha, cume kite je tak masok pape. lol

7 Aug 09, 10:25
passer: hey ur bike, pink is it stickers or airbrush? hw much it cost? nice. u r pretty
pka : hey, thanks! its actually airbrush. did it at ah boy jb. around RM450 with new cover set

7 Aug 09, 10:16
fedodedo: haha. park pavement kepa. panggil police saman u baru tau! anyway nice pink hubby u have.
pka : BAHAHA. tengah tunggu mase utk disaman je. alahh. park kat carpark danger uh. and i scared to go there alone at night. lol

6 Aug 09, 18:58
veeya: is dat e newlook of ur babybike???? woahhh *mulot ternganga*.. gorgeous!
pka : yeah babe! thankiew. thankiew. but i thought u don't like pink kan? haha. read it in one of your posts on facebook! muahaha.

Everyone is asking me the exact same question.
"What happened to your Facebook?"

BAHHHHH!
Pissed.

It's prompting me this message.

"Account Unavailable

Your account is temporarily unavailable due to site maintenance. It should be available again within a few hours. We apologize for the inconvenience."

And subsequently when others try to view my profile,
it states ..

"Sorry, this profile is not available at the moment. Please try again shortly."

Fact is, I haven't been able to log in for more than a few hours now!
Dammit. I so can't be bothered to re-open another account if this decides to screw up on me. The photos, the friends, the comments etc etc.

Screw it.
I need to save money for end of year plans, which ultimately means that I have to work my ass off and cut down on all expenses and activities with circles of friends. No more clubbing, pubbing and unnecessary spendings. Not only that, sparky baby has to be put on hold for the time being. As of hand right now, there is Sepang in October, company's overseas annual holiday in November and Bali in December. On top of that, I'll be accompanying Niki to New Zealand in September, which is like NEXT MONTH! Worst case scenario, I think I would need to give Moto GP a miss this year and fly to New Zealand instead. It will happen and I assure you it will. Haha. I'm having the time of my life. There are so many things in life that you can look forward too in order to distant your mind from the obstacles experienced in life. From the pain, sadness and anger. Concentration and motivation. There is no other source of inspiration than yourself. People hurt you and you've hurt people. Its a vicious cycle. Though unintentionally, it still brings upon sadness and tears. Eventually these people drift away at a point when you least expect them too. That's life.

So absorb it, swallow it and live with it!

True enough?

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You are most entitled to your own opinions!
So, judge for yourself.

On another note, I've been heading straight home for the past week and falling asleep soon after. Late nights are coming to an end. Lol. Not forgetting all those social activites and partying! Tsk tsk. I'm proud of myself. I seriously need to dispose all those bad habits.

But most importantly, no more drink riding!

Sneak preview of its current state.
Finally its all PINK!


Life hasn't been anything out of the ordinary.
Still working my ass off day and night. Late nights, early mornings.

BUT

There's something in which I'm proud of individually.
I haven't been drinking! Neither have I been partying or stepping into clubs and pubs other than Caesars. But that is due to the fact that I'm working there of course. Temptations. Yes, the urge is constantly there, especially with the persuasion of the people surrounding you. Volcom event on Friday night at Zouk! BAHHH! I think I will need to give it a miss. I need to save my money.

On another note, there is a new atmosphere in the office in which I need to adapt too.
But its all good. No hard feelings. No grudges held against anyone. No matter how much anyone despise me, I will never be against you. Hatred won't lead you anywhere in life. Neither does all the bad-mouthing and profanity language. So, peace be upon you.

Oh, I met up with the girls the other night.
Fauzilah - Fidah - Fiqah
The 3 F's all born in 1987 ..


Better known as ..
Pka - Fyda - Zila




I miss you girls.
It has been years since we chilled out, just the three of us.
Any difference now? Well, Fyda's engaged! But me and Zilah's still single. Huahua.
Tak laku ke kite? Lols.

Fuck that! We are SO heading to BALI this December.
It's going to be one hell of an awesome trip.

Not forgetting Sepang, KL for MotoGP in October and annual company trip in November.
See why I need to save my money?

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6 Aug 09, 12:42
naddya: hey babe. tanx for the drop-bys. heh. u're GORGEOUS TOO! && link up okayy? =)
pka : no worries darls! you've been linked! =D

6 Aug 09, 11:35
fedodedo: pka!! i went ard your area. tak jumpe pun moto warna pink!! mana gambar?!? haha
pka : wahh semangat pe! lol. my bike is rarely at home during the days. u would be lucky to get a glimpse of it hibernating on the pavements. hehh.

6 Aug 09, 00:47
zyzy: & do tkcr aite..n ur days r always happenin ek.. =)
6 Aug 09, 00:47
zyzy: hmm, bt reali le..u n ur bro reali look familiar..myb pnh pass by each other r..ahahahaha...
6 Aug 09, 00:46
zyzy: ohh..u tgl wlds ek..
pka : yeah babe, wdlnds baby! hehh. alah sg is damn damn small. maybe we have bumped into each other during our journey of life. hehe. u take care too babe! and AND hopefully we do bump again! weeee~ make sure tegur okay! *hugs*

5 Aug 09, 10:04
lala: and also...pls...pls..pls...kip in touch in fb.....hehehehe
5 Aug 09, 10:04
lala: hey gf..my blog will be privatised till dun knoe when...so wun be updating aniting...wun know when i'll start updating...so i'll kip u posted..in the meantime,,,RIDE SAFELY..BOOYAH
pka : wakaka. BOOOOOYAHHHH! alah why has it turned private? i wanna access can? tapi u won't be updating jadi no point gitu kan. haha. don't worry, we will definitely keep in touch lah babe! i'm still waiting for another chill-out session! BAHHH!

4 Aug 09, 20:01
Caramelboopz: Pka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! life like nenehpok leh. i sad until cannot sad liao.. you leh? wooohooo stilll varoom varoom hor. must take care ok superwoman!! hugs
pka : haha. nenehpok macam mane tu? don't sad-sad lah darls. always keep your chin up no matter what circumstances! my life's been one hell of a rollercoaster but i'm still smiling! yes, i still ride despite the major accident until my face scrap and body all scrap tt time. hurhur. u take care too baybeh! *hugs*

3 Aug 09, 17:27
ainni: yes babe...im already stressed thinking of the buckeroos!!!
pka : i would be too! OMG its like heaps of money. but then again, its a once-in-a-lifetime thing! and like wowww marriage! hehh. okay i'm getting too excited for ya.

3 Aug 09, 15:25
Nana Cyber: hello! hehe. Yeah lama tak drop by. i pon. heh. how u? blogger mcm2 laa. bingit jer. da smangat ni nak update..haha..
pka : haha. i'm fine thanks! i hope life's been good for you too! tu lah irritating kan. but right now, mines okay already tapi semangat utk update, it comes and goes. haha

3 Aug 09, 14:48
zura: dat lil' boi.. seth mikail is soo0o cute.. da besa confirm heartbreaker! heeh
pka : hehh! he is damn damn cute and strong too! he just loves wrestling people. haha.

Eventually it became Hafiz's individual Track Day @ Pasir Gudang.

Supported by, Pka - Apai - Farz.

And I was excited since it was my first ride there!
Despite the fun and excitement, it was bloody scary too man.
Weaving in and out of traffic with huge lorries, buses and inconsiderate motorists.

The day started quite early for us.
Meeting point = ESSO Woodlands.

While waiting, we cam-whored since me and Sen were the first to arrive.


Oh, and I was the only out-of-dressed one. They all looked as though they wanted to go Sepang instead of Pasir Gudang! Muahahaha. I can't wait for my turn to come. I wanna try the tracks too! But first things first, PROPER attire and gears are essential. I don't even have a full face helmet! BAHHH!

Presenting, my brother of a different mother and father.
I don't see any resemblance between us. But sadly, there are people who message me on Tagged saying that they've seen me here and there with the boys. And there was once, when I was just with Sen, they thought he was my younger brother. Like WTF. He's bloody 2 years older than me, like my own beloved brother Ruzaini.

Oh talking about the elder brother, he was featured in the papers overseas but he didn't manage to get the original source. Just the article on the internet from the Hindi Papers. Hurhur.

The Hindu : International

I'm proud of you brother.

Okay off-tracked abit there.
Here we go!


Followed by the arrival of these two monkeys.
We waited for like an hour okay.

JANJI MELAYU !
Kalau janji KELING, paitao teros !

The route there wasn't that hard.
Since the boys couldn't remember the directions, we had our own map clearly drawn by Apit. Too bad he couldn't make it at the very last minute. It would've been much more fun! Not forgetting Sid, Nash, Aki, Apek, Amy.. rest of the boys, Niki and OSHIN darls!


The heat was unbearable.
Scorching HOT sun. I think I'm like 10 shades darker now.
Despite being all covered, my face was constantly under the sun!

Pardon the following pictures.
I was self-obsessed with the camera. I'm ready for criticisms. I hate my slightly chipped tooth. Still have no time for the super overdued appointment at the hospital. Its like during office hours and there is no way in the world I can make it unless I sacrifice my leave or become friends with MC. But NO NO NO, MC is NOT YOUR FRIEND! Muahaha.

Thats enough.
You can vomit for all I care.
Moving on, more random pictures.

Not forgetting the feeling-feeling racer pictures on the podium.
And the ones that you always see on people's profiles whenever they go there. Pictures at the main entrance. Haha. We literally took turns one-by-one to snap those pictures as uncle at the gate didn't look as though he could be bothered to get his ass off the chair. Muahaha!

Upon arrival back at Woodlands, we decided to head off to Teh Tarik followed by Moksen's crib while Mr Farzli headed back home. Our first meals of day which was around 3pm.

BAHAHAHAHA.
Another one of those self-obsessed pictures.
I wanted to sleep but ended up snapping with the camera since I've missed its presence for 3 whole months. Lucky the brother took good care of it. IF NOT I would've gotten freaking pissed!


And within the next few minutes ..
One by one dozed off in style!

Oh, you have grown so quickly!

I will always pray for your happiness, health and constantly ensure you will grow up to be a wiser man for the future. In my heart, you will always be my baby Aqil even when you've reached your 20's. Please don't be a smartass or rebellious teenager. I don't want you to be mixing with the wrong company and become like your one and only sister!

Study hard and be a good Monfortian.
BAHAHAHAHAHA.

Hence, since its the younger brother's birthday today we will be going out for a family dinner tonight. I've cancelled all plans, work etc tonight to spend time with the family. Mavis will be joining us tonight! Oh, she's the elder brother's girlfriend and they've been together for like 5 years! Damn envious of them. HAHHH. My relationships have never sustained that long. I'm not too sure on the location tonight. The elder brother wants a big feast of seafood, even though it's not his birthday. Lol. Considering Newton is the only place I have in mind, I thought of heading there.

BUT

I was there last night with Niki.
Haha. Just the two of us. We clocked out from the pub earlier since she wanted to go Double O but then we both realised how much we couldn't be bothered to go. Therefore, instead of wasting our money clubbing, we might as well indulge in good food. It was practically like a semi-big feast! Eating to our hearts content, leaving our tummy all bloated. But it was damn good. AND that will be the last time I'm gonna eat after midnight! No more. Lol. Fattening shits.

On another note, last weekend was super duper packed!
Recap and basic summary of it all.
Friday night was spent at the pub after office.
The GRS dudes came down to Caesars again! After we knocked off work, we went down to Clarke Quay for practically no reason. Lol. Headed down to Insomnia at Chijmes afterwards and stayed there till around 5am.

The night didn't end there.
I met up with Alif and friends afterwards and we had breakfast at Spize before the 4 of them who's staying West side, escorted me all the way home. Haha. I left my bike at Bugis since I was drinking that night. Anyway thanks boys! And we shall go out again soon okay!

Having reached home at around 7am and working at 9am, I tried my extreme best to stay awake despite those eyes closing down on me. Eventually, I fell asleep .. Hahah! Amazingly, I managed to wake up at 8:15am and rushed myself to work. Something startled me during my sleep. It was like practically telling me, in my dream to "wake up, wake up" Lol. Okay I'm weird.

Come Saturday it was another round of non stop action.
Left office at 1pm, followed by Aki's sister's wedding before proceeding to this pub at Chinatown in the evening to support one of my colleague performing and then to Cathay Cinemas to watch the new Harry Potter. By the time the movie ended, I didn't have a clue what it was about since I slept almost 3/4 throughout the whole movie! Weeee~ And my Saturday night ended around 5 - 6am.

Sunday was more relaxed with only one wedding to attend too.


Congratulations to Zyra baby and Boy Yus.
All the best in your marriage!


And as usual, Sunday nights are always spent at the pub working.
Or more like bludging away playing pool, cam-whoring and talking shits since there are hardly any customers.

But I was stunned with surprise when the GRS boys and Niki entered by the back door.
Eventually I left at 11pm and we all went down to Pasir Ris for some prawn fishing action. Bloody 2 hours of prawn fishing with only 2 prawns. BAHAHAHAH. Okay we're not as skillfull as others. But it was sure fun and laughter!






Come to think about it.
It has been 3-days-straight with the GRS boys.
Poor baby boys, which are the rest of my brothers-4-life. Muahaha. All merajok since we didn't meet up that often during the weekend. But its all good now and the GRS are having the time of their life in Bali!
Weee~

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30 Jul 09, 13:08
lala: yayaveeya...cool...all the besh gerl..ya..i do ride...hahahaha
pka : yeaahhh and she's one kick ass girl as well! i miss you lala!!

29 Jul 09, 20:45
zyzy: ur picture in sg girls?? seriously?? da tkd keje la org2 nie smue..biarla..dorg nk dengki ke pe, as long as u tk ganggu dorg aite..klu nk privatise, do invite me aite..tkcr dearie.. =)
pka : hehh. i can't be bothered to disturb others. they have to get over their jealousy or hatred issues, since there is absolutely nothing that others should be jealous about! hehh. sure babe. kalau i jadi private kan okay! u take care too =D
29 Jul 09, 20:44
zyzy: ahahaha...that's the thing..i cant rmbr where..skrg i tgl kat sin ming..u tgl ne ek??
pka : i'm stayin wdlnds babe. but since i was born and during the first few years of primary, jurong.

28 Jul 09, 01:16
julie: woits...really uh the sg girls thingy...tsk2... chikopek siak tuh org...tkd keje~
pka : yeah. like freaking irritating uh. assholes. hahh.

27 Jul 09, 23:41
yun: tlg eh relink ! hahha
pka : sudah link budak cute!

27 Jul 09, 20:18
secret admirer: if onli got the change to complete u
pka : eh? say what?

23 Jul 09, 13:04
roy: and in the meanwhile, cheer up... wat doesn't kill u, kick it bek in the ass!!
23 Jul 09, 13:03
roy: its sad to see this kinda things happening... well, envy is really a pain in the ass!! in any case, if u decide to 'privatise' ur blog, lemme knw k.... do wat u tink is good for u....
pka : hehh. still contemplating. it'll be so tedious to reinvite people etc etc. so, since things have cooled down, i might just leave it open to the cyber world. and yes, morons can act all big fuck on the net and degrade themselves. but then in reality, they are just an outcast from society. tsk tsk. poor thang~

22 Jul 09, 23:36
sid: *yayaveeya* ya she ride!!! hot chix on bikey... hahaha
pka : all three chicks here can ride siddy. best kan!

22 Jul 09, 18:59
nisa: gosh. i miss u. bile mau jumpe ehk!? lols
pka : i miss you too sweetie. hari tu kite da jumpe kat wedding! wee~ but it wasn't a decent meet up. we'll meet soon okay. take care of yourself tau! remember my advices hor!
22 Jul 09, 13:14
yayaveeya: lala: hahaha. im waiting for my bf to add my name on his bike la. hehe~ soon i guess. u ride too?
pka : YESSSSSS nak sebok2 dlm conversation korang. get your boifey to expedite the process please. hehe.

22 Jul 09, 11:55
lala: yayaveeya:hey babe...ride la..nnti le riding2 ngan pka...kan besh...
pka : yes yes yes joms we can all go ride together. yang ade moto ke takde moto boleh pillion kan! have all the chicks!

22 Jul 09, 11:55
lala: pka: hmm...hectic week..jus remember to take care...
pka : yes darls. thank you. awak pon take care tau!

22 Jul 09, 00:55
sid: awak, wats e title of e song? msg me k? thks..
pka : weee~ i've informed you already. its 'Be With You' by Akon!

21 Jul 09, 20:32
angel: i baca ur weekend,i yg penat...
pka : penat bace kan. muahaha

21 Jul 09, 18:25
yayaveeya: *seldom ride
21 Jul 09, 18:23
yayaveeya: ok dear,invitation done. && i da link ponggg:D anw,i have license but seldom ryte. so is dat counted as 'YES, I RIDE?' hehehe~
pka : okay darls, i've finally had the chance to update a decent entry and reply to the tags! oh, and you are oh-so-linked darls! jambu sekali sey u!

21 Jul 09, 16:36
fedodedo: hey link me k!
pka : you're linked dude!

I haven't been in the mood to update my blog.

Practically busy the whole time.

So, no decent entry from me and I'll reply to the tags soon.

But on another note, I just received a Friend Request and message on Facebook, which shocked me big time.

"Hi adik, how are u? How is the family? Cld you pls tell mummy that I need to be home. I've missed u all. I want to be with the family during Hari Raya. What is buddy n abang doin? Daddy loves u all"

And I instantly called Mummy to inform her.
OMG.

After nearly 8 years, you've decided to reconcile?
I'm sorry, but this is just pure bullshit.

There is more to life than just being a bitch.

Life is short and packed with ups and downs. But ultimately, living life to the fullest, wholesomely and doing things righteously is the most rewarding.

I live with no grudges against anyone.
Hate me?
Your choice.

But remember, I've never once caused disturbance or created trouble for ANYONE.

On another note, I was in town last night for a coffee session with someone. What really happened between them and amongst ourselves, no one will know. Deceits, lies, backstabs. Hahh. Full of shit. But oh well, I'm not dreading over the past. Its over and done with. That chapter in life is finished. No more continuation of new chapters.

And oh, it was nice meeting up with you.
=)

News has it that my picture which doesn't even reveal any form of indecency was up on Singapore Girls. And apparently, this wasn't the first time. Singapore Girls website, which is equivalent to another version of Sammyboy's website is a collection of both erotic and pornographic photos of local girls.

Pffffft.
.. And now, which faggot has the time and effort to literally visualize my pictures and even bother to edit with arrows pointing to the cleavage and feminine area. What was more intriguing was the lewd comments next to the arrows. HAHH! Anyway I'm in the midst of contacting the site to have the pictures removed. But seriously, it's not even erotic. Worst part, the pictures were taken from my blog, which is triggering my brain cells to privatise my blog. We shall see.

Oh, and my NAME was spelt correctly too.
Coincidental or purely random?

Moving on, another hyperactive weekend for me.
As usual, left office at around 6-ish on Friday and made my way to the pub. I was working till 2am and fucking hell, time was passing extremely slow. I was bored within the first hour. Hurhur. Started playing this game with one of the regulars and he was DAMN sure I would get drunk if I drank 1 x Tequila Shot followed by 1 x Mug Beer and 1 x Red wine in one go. Wasn't worth it for 3 LDs. But no, I wasn't drunk at all. Eventually I left by 1am with Niki clocking out earlier by 11pm. She was waiting for me and so were the rest of the boys. Oh, cheer up darls! Don't cry okay. Pka's here. Hehh.

Spent the night at Yishun's, despite working the next morning.
After our pigging out feast of McDonald's Delivery, we slept our way through. Apai had to be the irritating alarm clock to wake us up and BLOODY HELL, you were one irritating bitch. HAHH! Oh and I dreamt that Me, Apai and Moksen went to America together. Wakaka. And so, by 9am, we arrived at our respective offices with Apai being the despatch rider since my bike's tyre was still punctured. Muahahaha.

Office ended at 1pm and subsequently met up with Sen for another TNGJB session. (Touch And Go Johor Bahru) Wakakaka. Time dragged and I didn't manage to get any afternoon nap! Reached home, showered and off to work again at the pub. I was supposed to reach by 8pm but I took my own sweet time and clocked in at 9pm instead. Hehh.

Sunday was spent sleeping in till 4pm.
And hell yeah, it felt good!

Met up with my full time BIKEBULANCE boys + one HOT chick. Weeee~ Who else but those regular boys in my life and the hot chick would be Niki. Wakaka. Thanks for all the trouble and assisting me time after time. Much much appreciated and loved! I'm using Sen's tyres and rims for the meantime till I head back JB to get my bike all done again.

Headed off to work again by 7pm while the rest of them continued on with their plans.
I was so tempted to join them but eventually ended up at Caesars. Hahh. Oh well, I'm a workaholic. Hurhur. Upon reaching, I quickly changed to the sports channel to watch MotoGP! Weeee~ My boyfriend won again! Bahaha.

Well done Valentino Rossi!!!

Anyhoos, I was supposed to end work at 1am but I was quite pissed off that night and left at 11pm. Met up with the boys and Niki at Marina Square who cheered me up immensely with their constant jokes, laughters and bullshit. From Marina Square to Jurong to Sungai Buloh to Marsiling and back home at 3:30am. Managed to sleep for 4 hours before waking up for work again.

I want photos!
Faster get them uploaded!

See, told you I'm an Energizer battery.

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20 Jul 09, 21:53
passeby: beb, yg hafiz aka moksen, sounds familiar. He stay whr uhh dear? jus curious cos one of my long lost mate,pon i THINK same name. heeh. anyway, u rock la babe!
pka : weee~ thanks beb! hahh. kenal eh? last time he was staying hougang, now woodlands.

19 Jul 09, 08:00
yanosan: py...pizza nanty lar time chillout i bring oke...dun wori...cool seii spark sista!!~~huhur...
pka : yano! u still haven't seen the new paintwork. i haven't seen it either. hehh. belom siap! jadi belom cool lagi lah brader! hehh!

19 Jul 09, 02:26
sham: sometimes it mayb a sabotage. i eva kena such ting b4. damn piss off.
pka : haha. i also kena sabo before. notes, hp numbers, balloons and presents on my bike. wakaka. no lah don't think so. i think i was simply blind. lol

18 Jul 09, 21:12
Faj: darling.. =) ur x-colleague is ella kan? now she's my colleague.. i'm actuali in ur tagged fren list " MzFudge Tecktonik. heh. very small world huh. btw ****ty days do come n go, happens to evry1. hee
pka : wee~ i'm right. i thought it was u! i know u as sachok's gf. hehh. i've known him since zaman yp and now u're ella's colleague. lol. thanks for your encouraging words. =) btw do u have a blog too babe?

18 Jul 09, 14:30
kin: hahahahahaha.. klakar seh part last tu.. dari mana aje sataysticklookalike tu dtg. wakaka
pka : hahaha i think my brain slightly malfunctions at times. main jalan je. atas longkang pon boleh jatoh. aiyahh. bodoh bodoh. wakaka

18 Jul 09, 14:22
yayaveeya: *nak menyampok kat didi: go la take bike license,nnt i leh join korg jugak. wuahahaha! *sebok eh* LOL! ok tata
18 Jul 09, 14:20
yayaveeya: haha. i private laa my blog. koz tnk ade uninvited creatures sebok2 kat my tagboard.sungguh tak perlu. hehe. pass me ur email la,i'll invite u ((: link soon!! :D
pka : hahh. yes, uninvited species can do much harm. i'm still contemplating whether mine should be privatised too. yay! u ride too? ohh! i wanna be invited! my email for blogger is fiqah.sani@gmail.com ! Awaiting for you invitation baybeh!

18 Jul 09, 01:32
zyzy: anw, u & ur bro reali look familiar..bt i just cant put my finger to it..anw, maybe someone sabo u abt the flat tire thingyy??
pka : familiar? hehh. faster2 try and recall. wait2, where u staying babe? btw, i don't think it was sabotage. i think i was the dumb one. hahaha.

17 Jul 09, 23:20
didi: *we can ride together2... k?
17 Jul 09, 23:20
didi: yay!! pka pka is back...relink me relink me!! and i love seeing ur dollface.... pls eh, bwk motor take care horr...tgk u bwk motor i feel like enrolling la babe..den once i get my bike licence, we can
pka : yes my gorgoeus didi miyuki, finally can relink back! hehh. dollface? uglyface ade lah. you're the one with the dolled face and identical twin! gerek kan! cepat cepat amek lesen moto. but then hor, izzul azhan awak kasi ke? hehh.

17 Jul 09, 17:20
Myra: ayamaa.. i balek always turon the front lift then walk behind but never like to turn and look at the cargo area. hahaha. later i try my luck ah kay. haha.
pka : aiyoyohhh why never turn your head! hahh. next time turn and wave. confirm i'll wave back ecstaticly punye! dengan penuh semangat tau! usually what time do u leave the office?